“I’m sure you can hold your own better than you think.”
Cassian paused, clearly chewing over some lingering thought. The question of whether or not he’d ever invite her to officially join the Rebellion had always been the elephant in the room between them. But the days and months passed and he still hadn’t tried to recruit her. Occasionally one of his superiors floated the idea — we could use someone with Companionship training, captain — but he put his foot down on that particular option. No getting Inara Serra more entangled and imperiled than she already was, with her own existing connections.
But still. The day would probably come when someone wouldn’t be asking, they’d be telling him to recruit her, and he wasn’t sure what he’d do when that happened.
“If…” He tried to decide how to phrase this. “If I come across any compatible names, I could pass them along, if that’d be helpful. What are you after? Client-wise.”
His kind words were enough to silence her as she focused on the incoming food before them. The service was flawless and meticulous as expected of a restaurant of this caliber and a world like this, but she couldn't help but wonder what it would be like to just be somewhere more peaceful with Cassian. A blanket on the ground, a simply array of food they prepared and the crew at a distance enjoying themselves. It was desperately selfish to crave simplicity, and yet with each resistance of her own to avoid truly becoming a petty thief like she called the Captain of her crew, it seemed she got dragged further into it.
It was only when he spoke up about her work and offering to provide her names, she looked at him softly pondering how to respond to that. It was a kind gesture in theory but there were so many more strings and attachments to it— frankly it would be inappropriate to use him for that purpose. Even if they wrote it off as him just repaying her for the meal, she was never the kind to want to owe anyone anything. If she offered him a cut of credits in turn, it would lead to a stranger relationship between the two. Far more stranger than being recruited for the Rebellion.
"I'll be fine Cassian, I promise. It's just a lull in work at the moment, but it happens to us all....right? Besides I should be using this time to refine my skills....skills that don't quite involve pleasuring a client.", she said idly, holding her glass slightly tilted, almost as if it were a gun. Surely he got the hint.
Despite himself, Cassian wound up a little relieved that she’d gracefully declined. Theirs was a fragile network, interlocking webs of names and connections and vetted contacts — it wouldn’t be the worst thing to pass on a name, some senator with money, some friend of the rebellion who could benefit from her attention — but at the end of the day, the Rebellion wanted those friends to spend their money on munitions and supplies. It wasn’t fun, but neither was war.
That tilt of Inara’s glass, however, made him crack a small smile. Isn’t that what you have Captain Reynolds for?— he almost asked it — but managed to bite back the words. By some implicit agreement, he knew to sidle away from the subject of the other man. Every time he’d been in a room with both of them simultaneously, there had been some undefinable complicated tenor and history to their dynamic that he didn’t want to meddle with.
“I could give you lessons, if you want,” Cassian said instead. He rapped his trigger finger, once, twice, against the stem of his own glass. “It’s a useful skill.”
( ooc | apologies for the delay, I'm going to be on hiatus until next sunday but I'd love to continue this or something new then. )
It was human nature in a way, for her to refuse to spend any more time with the man who seemed so unsure of what he wanted with her. It was easy for her to turn to him for help, but every turn led to him insulting her line of work with a bitter array of emotions and jealousy he held over her. Her own affections were always in such a delicate limbo— wanting to be loved by him but refusing to accept it as she had her own affections with others elsewhere. She belonged to no one and only wanted to belong where she was genuinely wanted. So those emotions were placed into a box far into the back of her mind and while Cassian didn't need to know the complexities of her relationship with her Captain, she was sure it was in the air. Obvious by how close she was to him, yet close enough to run from him willingly.
"Yes and you could use the credits.", she said, softly lifting her own glass of wine, polishing off the red liquid. No favors, no debts— it was the only way she could retain control over her person, especially with men. Even if Cassian wasn't like that.
"How about it? Private lessons for a willing student and you can finally have a good meal once a day at least." Her voice is teasing of course, but in her own way she did want to help him.
“Sounds like a good arrangement to me. It’s a deal,” Cassian said with a smile, hand outstretched, a grasp of palm to shake on it.
There were other practical considerations: the way things were going these days, it would be good for Inara to know how to handle a pistol. He wanted her to be safe, and she couldn’t always rely on Cobb or Reynolds or Washburne being nearby to handle all the shooting.
“So long as I’m between jobs, I’m happy to stick around. I could come by tomorrow, if your calendar’s open.”
He’d be here until he was summoned, until leadership needed him, until they tugged on Cassian’s leash and pulled him back to heel. In the meantime, he could be hers.
So their conversation meandered on from there, digging into their hearty meal, eventually the promised dessert, Inara stealing a mischievous bite off his portion. He nudged the plate closer to her. When they parted ways for the evening, he pressed an airy kiss to her cheek, before leaving the restaurant and returning to his ship. He had to radio in with his location, let them know he was going to stick around in this sector, in case they specifically needed someone near Bellerophon.
The next day, late afternoon crawling toward sunset, his ship pulled up to where Inara was staying in luxury, offering a bit more privacy where they could practice in peace. An extended balcony over the water and a tended garden, a decorative stone outcropping where he could line up a handheld projector and row of holo-targets.
The rich, foppish disguise was almost entirely gone now, his tailored jacket shrugged off and slung over a nearby chair. Cassian was even more relaxed in private, finally looking less like a tightly-wound spring. Unholstering his own blaster, he checked its settings were set to stun before he handed it to Inara, his fingers pressed to hers.
“How comfortable are you with a blaster to start with?” he asked. Getting a baseline.
When their hands touched to agree upon their new deal, Inara could have sworn his hands lingered far longer than usual— but perhaps even more perplexing to her was just how much she actually enjoyed feeling the warmth of his skin against her own. It was a dangerous thought for a woman like her who was so wrapped up in her own affairs and troubles, so she set it to the side for now, seeming to keep a poker face right on her. What was important now was focusing on what she was hiring him for, their meal, and for the next day.
So the rest of their time together went by in a blurry haze; whatever jokes he pulled, whether or not she stole more than just a few bites of his dessert were left in the dust when the two finally parted ways. She returned to her private quarters, a fancy shindig but despite having everything she needed at hand, she felt there was something missing. Whatever it was, was left to be explored for another time— the morning would bring the two together once more.
"I'm actually quite comfortable with one, I think my aim just needs improvement.", she said, taking the weapon from him with ease. She was dressed more casually than usual, a frilly top and pair of tight slacks for ease of movement. Her long and wavy hair was tightly pulled into a bun, and it was clear she was here to focus on the task at hand. Far from any emotions or sentiments that might have come from their 'dinner' last night.
“Aim can always do with improvement. Have to keep your skills sharp,” Cassian said, amiable.
He practiced when he could; it wouldn’t do to get rusty and slow when you suddenly needed the marksmanship in the field, in the middle of an emergency.
As he clicked a button on a small remote, the projector guttered and the holo-targets sparked to life, flickering and wobbling. After a moment, they steadied into a row of stationary circles, a dull blue gleam. Each accurate shot from the blaster would make a target vanish, the machine noting the time of each hit.
With the tech activated, he moved back to stand by Inara’s side, arms crossed and ready to watch her progress. Just like supervising the trainees at Yavin.
“Ready when you are, Serra,” he said, a mischievous turn to the way he said her surname. As if she were one of theirs, another soldier in the Alliance military machine, another one of his comrades.
For now, Inara remained poised and in control, keeping her eye out for the field before her as the holo-targets began to spring to life. Her eyes watched over their design, studying them briefly as she looked and calculated the distance between where she was standing and where the targets were. While this whole affair made her just a tad bit nervous— it was mostly due to being in such close proximity to Cassian. Normally she wouldn't care too deeply but there was something in the air between them, a familiarity that began to grow the more time they spent together. It was almost ridiculous in a way—
she felt like she didn't want to disappoint him or embarrass herself before him. It didn't take long though for those feelings to fade though, she was a woman who strove to be in control, it was something drilled into her at a young age. So as Cassian moved to the background, she took a more firm and in control stance, holding her arms up as she aligned the weapon towards the first target. She was confident and cool, but then he had to go and say her name like that. It brought a soft blush to her face before she finally did shoot, falling a few inches away from the center of the target.
"Not bad for a newbie, right?", she said softly, turning her gaze back before she smiled at Cassian. There was no way she'd show him that brief wave of emotions she had felt. Absolutely never.
Cassian cocked his head and scrutinised the target— it was genuinely good, actually, especially for a woman whose line of work didn’t usually entail sending blaster bolts into someone’s heart.
“Not bad,” he conceded, with a small grin mirroring Inara’s own smile. “You want any tips on closing that last gap?”
It was a question for consent, waiting for permission and the tilt of her chin to say yes before he came sidling in close behind her. He was mindful, and the touch wasn’t salacious or unnecessary; it was a steadying hand against her left shoulder, the other adjusting the tilt of her right elbow and the set of her hands on the blaster’s grip.
It was a move that a younger, more reckless and flirtatious version of himself might have pulled: an excuse to get close to her, to occupy the same space and breathe the same air with his chin just over the woman’s shoulder. But it was still to a purpose: still training.
“Even your breathing can throw off your shot,” he explained, close to her ear, his own heart kicking an involuntary beat at standing so close.
“Gotta learn to time it. There’s a couple different ways. Take a deep breath, exhale half of it, then hold your breath when you squeeze the trigger; or, take a few deep breaths and then squeeze after exhaling, but before inhaling the next. Whichever way you’re more comfortable with.”
"Of course, that's why you're here.", she quipped almost immediately. Despite her own smile and controlled posture, there was an air of nervousness that seemed to cling onto her. Whether from the recoil of the blaster, the intensity of the situation, or her own feelings muddling up, she wasn't quite sure herself. All she could do was flinch her noise just a bit as she let out a shaky breath. It was a very subtle movement, a subtle action that showed what she might have been feeling when her words and the rest of her actions refused to.
Yet as soon as he came sliding in right next to her, she immediately turned her face forward and found herself holding her breath as soon as his hand came down on her shoulder. They were training, they were friends, they were simply here to be professional and yet....
why did she felt so nervous? Before she could assess her own feelings properly, her eyes went wide when his words came crawling in so close to her ear, leaving her face dusted with a very soft and idle blush. She had to focus, concentrate and do well so she could end this training session as soon as possible. It was a split decision she made in her mind because if things dragged on like this, she wasn't sure what would come of this encounter.
So she nodded a bit, let out another shaky breath and inhaled deeply enough for Cassian to be able to hear. Finally she lifted her hands up with the blaster tightly gripped....
"Okay, you might want to step back. I'd hate to accidentally hurt you...", she said but unlike in the past, her voice genuinely sounded softer, more docile.
“I can take care of myself, don’t worry.” He’d been through much worse, after all: blaster bolts whizzing by overhead, explosions around him, bodies flying from a careless swing of a security droid’s arm, countless narrow escapes that he still couldn’t quite believe he’d survived.
But Cassian obediently moved behind and to the side regardless, back out of reach and out of errant misfire range, granting Inara some space again and the reassurance of knowing she’d have room to operate. He didn’t watch the target, since either way, it would let them know how accurate the hit was; so he only had eyes for her.
Ostensibly it was to assess the angle of her elbow again, the grip of her fingers and the set of her shoulders, seeing if there was anything left to correct, but well,
As he said those words, she couldn't help but feel a twinge of genuine care over him. They were just friends was something she told herself and yet he had come to matter a great deal to her. She didn't just invite him to dinner because she felt bad for him and his plight― she genuinely wanted his company, to see him again even if it came at her expense. It was rare for her to do those things for anyone especially since she was endlessly chasing her own financial freedoms but it was clear she was starting to care too much about him. Yet as she stood there with the blaster in hand, she shook her head and forced herself to sway away any thoughts she might have had over the man. Now was far from the time to be dwelling on such ideas― she was here to train and work.
So she swallowed down a bundle of saliva that had nervously accumulated in her mouth as she simply looked back at him and then forward, bringing her hand up towards the new and refreshed targets. Inara could feel his eyes burning into her, staring her down and yet she forced herself to return back to her usual state of being; in control. With a soft inhale, she began to warm up the device and aimed it forward, taking far longer this time before she shot. When she finally did, she was able to hit the target dead center but it was clear this wasn't ideal. It took her far too long to do it and on the battlefield it meant a certain doom.
With an exhale, she swung her arm down and turned towards him, nervously looking at him. "I'm too slow. I need to get better and faster."
Despite her fretting, Cassian didn’t sound worried. “The aim is the first step. Once you know how to do it slow, you can do it fast. But if you want to work on reflexes—”
He went back to the holo-projector, pressed a few buttons, keyed in a different sequence, before returning to her. Now, only a single target shimmered into view once more.
“As soon as you hit the first one,” he explained, “another one will appear projected somewhere else. Don’t worry about getting a perfect bullseye with these. It’s about speed, hand-eye coordination. Follow your instincts, don’t overthink. It’ll get better with practice.”
It was a crisp, businesslike rundown, the sort of training he ran all the new recruits through at the base. But underneath it was a thread of care throughout, the whole reason he’d suggested this, the reason he encouraged Inara to learn; it was the best way of keeping her safe, and Cassian was neurotic about keeping his loved ones safe. He tended to hold them too close as-is. It was a constant point of contention with rebellion leadership, and it’d probably get him in trouble someday. But for now: he tried.
His response to her overall nervousness and self-criticism came as a surprise to Inara, enough to draw a tender expression from her as she watched him move. She had been expecting a taunt, a tease or two perhaps but support like this? It felt far warmer than she had been anticipating even if at a surface level it came across as pure, direct commands. It left her heart racing to put it bluntly.
Instead of focusing on that though, she gave him a quick and simple nod, turning her attention back to the target and held her arms up once more. This time she moved her body in a way that commanded control and firmness, head staring forward and focused, eyes wide and observant. As soon as a small alarm went off to indicate the machine was ready, she began to fire off quickly. Her aim was off at first, but with each new target coming in, she kept shooting faster and faster, hitting the target more accurately each time.
Finally when there were no more targets left, she put the safety on her device and swung her arms down, turning to face Cassian with a few beads of sweat dripping down her face.
Inara was starting to wear out, but Cassian took training deathly serious and never made it easy for a trainee; being lax was just the path to more rebels coming home swaddled in funerary cloth, their faces blown off, barely recognisable for their loved ones.
“Again,” he said, and keyed the sequence to start again, targets and locations randomised once more. It was like working out at the gym: you had to hit the wall and then keep going. Each time you’d be able to do it for longer.
But after another sequence, another round, more sweat on her temple and arms arching from holding up the gun, he finally relented: that stern shell of Captain Andor finally cracking and melting away, leaving only Cassian, her friend. He turned off the machine and reached out to lift the blaster out of Inara’s numb fingers, an apology almost on the tip of his tongue.
“Alright. That’s probably enough.” His eyes crinkled in a half-smile. “You’ll call me a heartless drill sergeant if I don’t let you take a break now.”
Regardless of whether or not she was starting to wear out, Inara shared a similar vision that Cassian did. She genuinely wanted to improve upon her skills and become more proficient because even if she didn't say it, she knew death was always lurking around the corner. It was true that she heavily vetted her clients and generally kept herself out of situations that could bring her harm but to be unprepared and unable to handle a larger array of attackers given the people she associated with was a fool's errand. She was far from one— after all, she was a woman who sought control and would do anything to have it. So there were no complaints from her, no sighs or whimpers of how unfair he was being.
Instead she moved her body with all of her might and lifted up the blaster again, aiming and waiting for the new sequence of targets to be prepared. Once they were, she began to fire off again, this time moving at a faster velocity than before and pushing herself to all of her limits. Her aim was much better, poised and in control but by the end of it, it was clear she was finally wearing herself out. Before she could do anything else though, the device was taken from her hands and she was left staring at the man beside her with a confused expression before she finally relented.
"I wouldn't, not when I wanted this but.....a break is good for the mind and soul, to keep me refreshed and alert. Shall we go into my suite for a drink then?"
It was part of the instinct you developed after a few years working like this: the sense of when someone had likely had enough, even if they didn’t think they’d reached their limit, when they kept wanting to keep going.
Cassian tucked away the blaster, back into his hip-slung holster. The late afternoon had been wearing on, red-soaked Bellerophon sunset eventually sinking around the floating island, the sky a painting. “That sounds great,” he said, warmly. “Haven’t seen this suite yet.”
He’d never visited Inara as a client, but he’d occasionally visited her various private quarters as a friend: expensive rooms scattered all across the galaxy, fancy parlours and soothing comfortable environments, a far cry from the grim environments he tended to live in while on mission. It’d be a nice place to relax.
He grabbed his jacket again, slung it over his shoulder, and he’ll tail her back indoors.
Anyone else would be admonished for such a bold and familiar comment towards Inara— truthfully Cassian was one of the few outside of Kaylee who were allowed into her suite without any reservations. The respect he had always shown her won him that favor and while she rarely thought much of it, there was something in the way the sky painted a view for them, the energy that surrounded them that left her strumming with a strange sensation. As things were settled away in the practice room, she began to guide them out towards the hallway and down the path that would lead to her suite. There was a strong emotion, perhaps a small fear that followed her and while she kept a neutral expression—
she couldn't help but wonder if this was a mistake. Inviting him to her suite, but then again what made this day different than their past times together?
Shaking away the thought, when they finally came to her door, she turned towards him and offered a polite smile. "Don't be too surprised, my host allowed me to have the best room around. So drink to your heart's content, there's an open bar and other amenities. Given the nature of your....work well you should take advantage when you can." As she opened the door, she couldn't help but wonder if she should be saying those words to herself.
'Take advantage when you can', because really moments of passing bliss were rare and few among friends, or those who slowly began to fall further from that title.
Cassian followed her into the rooms, and on autopilot, started picking out the number of doors and windows and alternate exits like he always did. But everything else here was perfectly-calculated to put someone at ease, all pampered luxury and comfort. He had to remind himself to ease into it: take advantage when you can.
And some people in the resistance might have rankled at the disparity, the far cry between Inara’s rich world and theirs, but he knew not to hold it against her. She was still an ally. They had friends everywhere.
“I’m still never used to places like this,” he admitted, accepting her invitation and moving to the bar where he started to rustle through the glasses and bottles, looking for something to pour for both of them. “One of our leaders— she was a senator in the core worlds, grew up rich, she’s having a real shock adjusting to rebel life.”
It wasn’t really a secret anymore, so he could mention Mon Mothma’s involvement. The manka cat was out of the bag as soon as the senator ducked the Imperial warrant for her arrest and went on the run, openly broadcasting as one of the official leaders of the rebellion.
There were times where Inara found it difficult to remember that the access to luxury she had depended on a number of factors— on the type of client she had, on where they were meeting, and the general circumstances of the political climate around them. She had been on a lucky streak as of late, being able to secure clients with ease and being called upon by some of her more powerful and rich clientele. however she, of all people, very well knew things like these were fleeting. Moments of peace and tranquility were to be enjoyed to the fullest because they truly came so rarely. So while others might have scoffed at it, it was the reason she told him to 'take advantage when you can'. Because she knew in inviting him here to a fancy meal, offering to hire him to train her were all the little ways she could help him. She was his ally after all.
"I can imagine she is, but the cause is far greater than the comfort of luxuries I presume.", her voice was soft and idle as she went about the room looking for a tray of grazing goods for them to enjoy. When she found a small and vintage looking tray, she lifted it up and brought it over to where Cassian was. Setting it down, she reached out to touch his hands gently, eyes lifting up to look at him.
"Please allow me to make you something, you are my guest after all. Unless you....have a new cocktail mix to show me?"
Surprise at her touch stilled him into a pause, with a laugh. “You don’t want to see what I usually drink,” he said, shaking his head. “Someone got a still up and running, so me and Melshi mostly have pure revnog. Killer hangovers.”
For the longest time, he’d been cagey about sharing anyone else’s personal details in the rebellion; she’d only ever known that he shared quarters with another male rebel close to his own age, so it wasn’t until she crossed paths on them on a job that she finally got to meet the infamous Melshi, one of his best friends. They played cards and drank and were generally rambunctious bachelors when they weren’t being terrifically effective spies.
So at Inara’s invitation, Cassian stopped bustling around; this was her place, even temporary as it was, and hosting presumably ran even deeper in her instincts than his.
"Revnog? Here I thought you were a good boy who only drank bantha milk." Her voice was teasing and taunting him, a bright and cocky smile gracing her face as she remained touching him. Perhaps far longer than she should have, her energy and attitude now were no longer as nervous as before. The tension she felt earlier, the desire to be fully in control and poised for him were leaving her now. She was slipping into a more comfortable energy, as if they were two old friends from the very start. Their initial encounter was marred with the general chaos the crew on Serenity got into but with time she learned more about him, got to know him as a person.
Even if she had no true intentions of getting wrapped up, the closer she was to him [whether physically or through their friendship that only seemed to grow stronger], she was finding herself falling into something. The question was, was this what she wanted? Didn't she have something strange going on with Malcolm? Yet he never seemed to be into her, calling it a 'waste', pointless to start anything. Somewhere between those harsh words being spoken and now, she had set those feelings far from her. Still did that mean she was ready to move on? Should she?
She thought about those things in the brief moment she was standing before Cassian, hand finally escaping him before she turned towards the bar and began to work on serving herself from Corellian wine, and a more harder but sweet cocktail for her guest.
"You know, you don't have to stand around me. You can sit and relax, stretch your legs.....unless....you want to be near me.", she said, a near flirtatious tone in her voice.
There were comfortable couches in the lounge area where he could go and wait, but he’d settled against a sideboard at the edge of the room and near the bar. Still standing, leaning his weight against the credenza and arms crossed as he watched her work.
“Least I can do is keep you company while you’re making us drinks,” Cassian said lightly. And he might have left it at that, letting her hint just sit there unaddressed, but then he added knowingly: “The nice view’s a bonus.”
His flirtation had always been a gentle undercurrent to their interactions: it came easily, friendly with no expectations, a habit he carried even with total strangers. A way to put others at their ease and make them like him, because things were easier when people liked you. But the more that time went on and the more that Inara got to know him — the real him, or at least as close as he could get — and the more that she wasn’t just a passing face that he could forget in the morning… well, the riskier this all became. He hadn’t let himself care about anyone properly since Bix.
And yet he still found himself looking away from the risk, telling himself: this was fine. They deserved an indulgence, every once in a while. He could come here and share a drink with a friend and forget the war, just for a little bit.
His words are far more flirty than she could have ever imagined and they drew a warmth from her as she prepared the drinks and mulled over the kind of relationship they had. There was something about him that made her feel comfortable— she had often said she felt she could only be her true self around other women, but with Cassian it was different. The bold and daring side of her, the more nervous and vulnerable aspects to her— she could be them all around him and even if she still masked the nervousness she felt about wanting to be perfect, she felt comfortable around him. So his flirting wasn't rebuked at all, in fact once the drinks were done she turned around with them in hand and held out a his drink before him. If and when he took it, her fingers lingered on his just a bit longer than usual.
"Nice? I would say it's far better than nice.", she whispered, moving closer to him and nearly closing whatever gap there was between them. She placed her left hand on his shoulder, drink in her other hand as she looked at him with a soft passion in her eyes.
"I'm not usually the brazen type, but I'd argue I'm one of the best things about this place. The best view in this room."
All this time, all this comfortable friendship, and the easiest thing would be to simply leave it at that: a growing platonic trust, a steady foundation to build their dynamic on, something dependable and true. He accepted the drink from her, watching Inara over the edge of his glass as he took a sip and considered.
Strong but sweet, he thought. It wasn’t just about the drink.
The more cautious part of him was wary about pushing his luck and crossing this line, jeopardising one of his few friendships. But the other, greater part of him was warmed by the drink and the sunset and her company, and the constant awareness nagging at him that tomorrow’s mission might be his last, or the next, or the next. The future was never a guarantee. He might never make it back here to her side if his implausible luck finally ran out. He might never get to find out what this brewing something was between them. And if Cassian could dare to be brave and reckless on a mission when life called for it…
“You won’t find me complaining,” he finally said, still smiling. “Good thing I like brazen—”
And he took a second deep swig of his drink before setting it down on the sideboard, and leaning in to kiss her instead, free hand catching at Inara’s jaw, tasting the Corellian wine on her lips.
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Cassian paused, clearly chewing over some lingering thought. The question of whether or not he’d ever invite her to officially join the Rebellion had always been the elephant in the room between them. But the days and months passed and he still hadn’t tried to recruit her. Occasionally one of his superiors floated the idea — we could use someone with Companionship training, captain — but he put his foot down on that particular option. No getting Inara Serra more entangled and imperiled than she already was, with her own existing connections.
But still. The day would probably come when someone wouldn’t be asking, they’d be telling him to recruit her, and he wasn’t sure what he’d do when that happened.
“If…” He tried to decide how to phrase this. “If I come across any compatible names, I could pass them along, if that’d be helpful. What are you after? Client-wise.”
No one Imperial, went without saying.
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It was only when he spoke up about her work and offering to provide her names, she looked at him softly pondering how to respond to that. It was a kind gesture in theory but there were so many more strings and attachments to it— frankly it would be inappropriate to use him for that purpose. Even if they wrote it off as him just repaying her for the meal, she was never the kind to want to owe anyone anything. If she offered him a cut of credits in turn, it would lead to a stranger relationship between the two. Far more stranger than being recruited for the Rebellion.
"I'll be fine Cassian, I promise. It's just a lull in work at the moment, but it happens to us all....right? Besides I should be using this time to refine my skills....skills that don't quite involve pleasuring a client.", she said idly, holding her glass slightly tilted, almost as if it were a gun. Surely he got the hint.
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That tilt of Inara’s glass, however, made him crack a small smile. Isn’t that what you have Captain Reynolds for?— he almost asked it — but managed to bite back the words. By some implicit agreement, he knew to sidle away from the subject of the other man. Every time he’d been in a room with both of them simultaneously, there had been some undefinable complicated tenor and history to their dynamic that he didn’t want to meddle with.
“I could give you lessons, if you want,” Cassian said instead. He rapped his trigger finger, once, twice, against the stem of his own glass. “It’s a useful skill.”
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It was human nature in a way, for her to refuse to spend any more time with the man who seemed so unsure of what he wanted with her. It was easy for her to turn to him for help, but every turn led to him insulting her line of work with a bitter array of emotions and jealousy he held over her. Her own affections were always in such a delicate limbo— wanting to be loved by him but refusing to accept it as she had her own affections with others elsewhere. She belonged to no one and only wanted to belong where she was genuinely wanted. So those emotions were placed into a box far into the back of her mind and while Cassian didn't need to know the complexities of her relationship with her Captain, she was sure it was in the air. Obvious by how close she was to him, yet close enough to run from him willingly.
"Yes and you could use the credits.", she said, softly lifting her own glass of wine, polishing off the red liquid. No favors, no debts— it was the only way she could retain control over her person, especially with men. Even if Cassian wasn't like that.
"How about it? Private lessons for a willing student and you can finally have a good meal once a day at least." Her voice is teasing of course, but in her own way she did want to help him.
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There were other practical considerations: the way things were going these days, it would be good for Inara to know how to handle a pistol. He wanted her to be safe, and she couldn’t always rely on Cobb or Reynolds or Washburne being nearby to handle all the shooting.
“So long as I’m between jobs, I’m happy to stick around. I could come by tomorrow, if your calendar’s open.”
He’d be here until he was summoned, until leadership needed him, until they tugged on Cassian’s leash and pulled him back to heel. In the meantime, he could be hers.
So their conversation meandered on from there, digging into their hearty meal, eventually the promised dessert, Inara stealing a mischievous bite off his portion. He nudged the plate closer to her. When they parted ways for the evening, he pressed an airy kiss to her cheek, before leaving the restaurant and returning to his ship. He had to radio in with his location, let them know he was going to stick around in this sector, in case they specifically needed someone near Bellerophon.
The next day, late afternoon crawling toward sunset, his ship pulled up to where Inara was staying in luxury, offering a bit more privacy where they could practice in peace. An extended balcony over the water and a tended garden, a decorative stone outcropping where he could line up a handheld projector and row of holo-targets.
The rich, foppish disguise was almost entirely gone now, his tailored jacket shrugged off and slung over a nearby chair. Cassian was even more relaxed in private, finally looking less like a tightly-wound spring. Unholstering his own blaster, he checked its settings were set to stun before he handed it to Inara, his fingers pressed to hers.
“How comfortable are you with a blaster to start with?” he asked. Getting a baseline.
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So the rest of their time together went by in a blurry haze; whatever jokes he pulled, whether or not she stole more than just a few bites of his dessert were left in the dust when the two finally parted ways. She returned to her private quarters, a fancy shindig but despite having everything she needed at hand, she felt there was something missing. Whatever it was, was left to be explored for another time— the morning would bring the two together once more.
"I'm actually quite comfortable with one, I think my aim just needs improvement.", she said, taking the weapon from him with ease. She was dressed more casually than usual, a frilly top and pair of tight slacks for ease of movement. Her long and wavy hair was tightly pulled into a bun, and it was clear she was here to focus on the task at hand. Far from any emotions or sentiments that might have come from their 'dinner' last night.
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He practiced when he could; it wouldn’t do to get rusty and slow when you suddenly needed the marksmanship in the field, in the middle of an emergency.
As he clicked a button on a small remote, the projector guttered and the holo-targets sparked to life, flickering and wobbling. After a moment, they steadied into a row of stationary circles, a dull blue gleam. Each accurate shot from the blaster would make a target vanish, the machine noting the time of each hit.
With the tech activated, he moved back to stand by Inara’s side, arms crossed and ready to watch her progress. Just like supervising the trainees at Yavin.
“Ready when you are, Serra,” he said, a mischievous turn to the way he said her surname. As if she were one of theirs, another soldier in the Alliance military machine, another one of his comrades.
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she felt like she didn't want to disappoint him or embarrass herself before him. It didn't take long though for those feelings to fade though, she was a woman who strove to be in control, it was something drilled into her at a young age. So as Cassian moved to the background, she took a more firm and in control stance, holding her arms up as she aligned the weapon towards the first target. She was confident and cool, but then he had to go and say her name like that. It brought a soft blush to her face before she finally did shoot, falling a few inches away from the center of the target.
"Not bad for a newbie, right?", she said softly, turning her gaze back before she smiled at Cassian. There was no way she'd show him that brief wave of emotions she had felt. Absolutely never.
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“Not bad,” he conceded, with a small grin mirroring Inara’s own smile. “You want any tips on closing that last gap?”
It was a question for consent, waiting for permission and the tilt of her chin to say yes before he came sidling in close behind her. He was mindful, and the touch wasn’t salacious or unnecessary; it was a steadying hand against her left shoulder, the other adjusting the tilt of her right elbow and the set of her hands on the blaster’s grip.
It was a move that a younger, more reckless and flirtatious version of himself might have pulled: an excuse to get close to her, to occupy the same space and breathe the same air with his chin just over the woman’s shoulder. But it was still to a purpose: still training.
“Even your breathing can throw off your shot,” he explained, close to her ear, his own heart kicking an involuntary beat at standing so close.
“Gotta learn to time it. There’s a couple different ways. Take a deep breath, exhale half of it, then hold your breath when you squeeze the trigger; or, take a few deep breaths and then squeeze after exhaling, but before inhaling the next. Whichever way you’re more comfortable with.”
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Yet as soon as he came sliding in right next to her, she immediately turned her face forward and found herself holding her breath as soon as his hand came down on her shoulder. They were training, they were friends, they were simply here to be professional and yet....
why did she felt so nervous? Before she could assess her own feelings properly, her eyes went wide when his words came crawling in so close to her ear, leaving her face dusted with a very soft and idle blush. She had to focus, concentrate and do well so she could end this training session as soon as possible. It was a split decision she made in her mind because if things dragged on like this, she wasn't sure what would come of this encounter.
So she nodded a bit, let out another shaky breath and inhaled deeply enough for Cassian to be able to hear. Finally she lifted her hands up with the blaster tightly gripped....
"Okay, you might want to step back. I'd hate to accidentally hurt you...", she said but unlike in the past, her voice genuinely sounded softer, more docile.
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But Cassian obediently moved behind and to the side regardless, back out of reach and out of errant misfire range, granting Inara some space again and the reassurance of knowing she’d have room to operate. He didn’t watch the target, since either way, it would let them know how accurate the hit was; so he only had eyes for her.
Ostensibly it was to assess the angle of her elbow again, the grip of her fingers and the set of her shoulders, seeing if there was anything left to correct, but well,
maybe he was just admiring the view, too.
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So she swallowed down a bundle of saliva that had nervously accumulated in her mouth as she simply looked back at him and then forward, bringing her hand up towards the new and refreshed targets. Inara could feel his eyes burning into her, staring her down and yet she forced herself to return back to her usual state of being; in control. With a soft inhale, she began to warm up the device and aimed it forward, taking far longer this time before she shot. When she finally did, she was able to hit the target dead center but it was clear this wasn't ideal. It took her far too long to do it and on the battlefield it meant a certain doom.
With an exhale, she swung her arm down and turned towards him, nervously looking at him. "I'm too slow. I need to get better and faster."
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He went back to the holo-projector, pressed a few buttons, keyed in a different sequence, before returning to her. Now, only a single target shimmered into view once more.
“As soon as you hit the first one,” he explained, “another one will appear projected somewhere else. Don’t worry about getting a perfect bullseye with these. It’s about speed, hand-eye coordination. Follow your instincts, don’t overthink. It’ll get better with practice.”
It was a crisp, businesslike rundown, the sort of training he ran all the new recruits through at the base. But underneath it was a thread of care throughout, the whole reason he’d suggested this, the reason he encouraged Inara to learn; it was the best way of keeping her safe, and Cassian was neurotic about keeping his loved ones safe. He tended to hold them too close as-is. It was a constant point of contention with rebellion leadership, and it’d probably get him in trouble someday. But for now: he tried.
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Instead of focusing on that though, she gave him a quick and simple nod, turning her attention back to the target and held her arms up once more. This time she moved her body in a way that commanded control and firmness, head staring forward and focused, eyes wide and observant. As soon as a small alarm went off to indicate the machine was ready, she began to fire off quickly. Her aim was off at first, but with each new target coming in, she kept shooting faster and faster, hitting the target more accurately each time.
Finally when there were no more targets left, she put the safety on her device and swung her arms down, turning to face Cassian with a few beads of sweat dripping down her face.
“Again, I have to keep practicing.”
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Inara was starting to wear out, but Cassian took training deathly serious and never made it easy for a trainee; being lax was just the path to more rebels coming home swaddled in funerary cloth, their faces blown off, barely recognisable for their loved ones.
“Again,” he said, and keyed the sequence to start again, targets and locations randomised once more. It was like working out at the gym: you had to hit the wall and then keep going. Each time you’d be able to do it for longer.
But after another sequence, another round, more sweat on her temple and arms arching from holding up the gun, he finally relented: that stern shell of Captain Andor finally cracking and melting away, leaving only Cassian, her friend. He turned off the machine and reached out to lift the blaster out of Inara’s numb fingers, an apology almost on the tip of his tongue.
“Alright. That’s probably enough.” His eyes crinkled in a half-smile. “You’ll call me a heartless drill sergeant if I don’t let you take a break now.”
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Instead she moved her body with all of her might and lifted up the blaster again, aiming and waiting for the new sequence of targets to be prepared. Once they were, she began to fire off again, this time moving at a faster velocity than before and pushing herself to all of her limits. Her aim was much better, poised and in control but by the end of it, it was clear she was finally wearing herself out. Before she could do anything else though, the device was taken from her hands and she was left staring at the man beside her with a confused expression before she finally relented.
"I wouldn't, not when I wanted this but.....a break is good for the mind and soul, to keep me refreshed and alert. Shall we go into my suite for a drink then?"
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Cassian tucked away the blaster, back into his hip-slung holster. The late afternoon had been wearing on, red-soaked Bellerophon sunset eventually sinking around the floating island, the sky a painting. “That sounds great,” he said, warmly. “Haven’t seen this suite yet.”
He’d never visited Inara as a client, but he’d occasionally visited her various private quarters as a friend: expensive rooms scattered all across the galaxy, fancy parlours and soothing comfortable environments, a far cry from the grim environments he tended to live in while on mission. It’d be a nice place to relax.
He grabbed his jacket again, slung it over his shoulder, and he’ll tail her back indoors.
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she couldn't help but wonder if this was a mistake. Inviting him to her suite, but then again what made this day different than their past times together?
Shaking away the thought, when they finally came to her door, she turned towards him and offered a polite smile. "Don't be too surprised, my host allowed me to have the best room around. So drink to your heart's content, there's an open bar and other amenities. Given the nature of your....work well you should take advantage when you can." As she opened the door, she couldn't help but wonder if she should be saying those words to herself.
'Take advantage when you can', because really moments of passing bliss were rare and few among friends, or those who slowly began to fall further from that title.
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And some people in the resistance might have rankled at the disparity, the far cry between Inara’s rich world and theirs, but he knew not to hold it against her. She was still an ally. They had friends everywhere.
“I’m still never used to places like this,” he admitted, accepting her invitation and moving to the bar where he started to rustle through the glasses and bottles, looking for something to pour for both of them. “One of our leaders— she was a senator in the core worlds, grew up rich, she’s having a real shock adjusting to rebel life.”
It wasn’t really a secret anymore, so he could mention Mon Mothma’s involvement. The manka cat was out of the bag as soon as the senator ducked the Imperial warrant for her arrest and went on the run, openly broadcasting as one of the official leaders of the rebellion.
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"I can imagine she is, but the cause is far greater than the comfort of luxuries I presume.", her voice was soft and idle as she went about the room looking for a tray of grazing goods for them to enjoy. When she found a small and vintage looking tray, she lifted it up and brought it over to where Cassian was. Setting it down, she reached out to touch his hands gently, eyes lifting up to look at him.
"Please allow me to make you something, you are my guest after all. Unless you....have a new cocktail mix to show me?"
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For the longest time, he’d been cagey about sharing anyone else’s personal details in the rebellion; she’d only ever known that he shared quarters with another male rebel close to his own age, so it wasn’t until she crossed paths on them on a job that she finally got to meet the infamous Melshi, one of his best friends. They played cards and drank and were generally rambunctious bachelors when they weren’t being terrifically effective spies.
So at Inara’s invitation, Cassian stopped bustling around; this was her place, even temporary as it was, and hosting presumably ran even deeper in her instincts than his.
“All yours, Inara. Dealer’s choice.”
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Even if she had no true intentions of getting wrapped up, the closer she was to him [whether physically or through their friendship that only seemed to grow stronger], she was finding herself falling into something. The question was, was this what she wanted? Didn't she have something strange going on with Malcolm? Yet he never seemed to be into her, calling it a 'waste', pointless to start anything. Somewhere between those harsh words being spoken and now, she had set those feelings far from her. Still did that mean she was ready to move on? Should she?
She thought about those things in the brief moment she was standing before Cassian, hand finally escaping him before she turned towards the bar and began to work on serving herself from Corellian wine, and a more harder but sweet cocktail for her guest.
"You know, you don't have to stand around me. You can sit and relax, stretch your legs.....unless....you want to be near me.", she said, a near flirtatious tone in her voice.
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“Least I can do is keep you company while you’re making us drinks,” Cassian said lightly. And he might have left it at that, letting her hint just sit there unaddressed, but then he added knowingly: “The nice view’s a bonus.”
His flirtation had always been a gentle undercurrent to their interactions: it came easily, friendly with no expectations, a habit he carried even with total strangers. A way to put others at their ease and make them like him, because things were easier when people liked you. But the more that time went on and the more that Inara got to know him — the real him, or at least as close as he could get — and the more that she wasn’t just a passing face that he could forget in the morning… well, the riskier this all became. He hadn’t let himself care about anyone properly since Bix.
And yet he still found himself looking away from the risk, telling himself: this was fine. They deserved an indulgence, every once in a while. He could come here and share a drink with a friend and forget the war, just for a little bit.
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"Nice? I would say it's far better than nice.", she whispered, moving closer to him and nearly closing whatever gap there was between them. She placed her left hand on his shoulder, drink in her other hand as she looked at him with a soft passion in her eyes.
"I'm not usually the brazen type, but I'd argue I'm one of the best things about this place. The best view in this room."
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Strong but sweet, he thought. It wasn’t just about the drink.
The more cautious part of him was wary about pushing his luck and crossing this line, jeopardising one of his few friendships. But the other, greater part of him was warmed by the drink and the sunset and her company, and the constant awareness nagging at him that tomorrow’s mission might be his last, or the next, or the next. The future was never a guarantee. He might never make it back here to her side if his implausible luck finally ran out. He might never get to find out what this brewing something was between them. And if Cassian could dare to be brave and reckless on a mission when life called for it…
“You won’t find me complaining,” he finally said, still smiling. “Good thing I like brazen—”
And he took a second deep swig of his drink before setting it down on the sideboard, and leaning in to kiss her instead, free hand catching at Inara’s jaw, tasting the Corellian wine on her lips.
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